This year I will be celebrating my 9 years since giving my life to Jesus. Nine. years. I'm not quite sure where the time has gone, but I can tell you that it has gone by very quickly. I used to look at people that were saved for a decade and longer and wonder what it would be like to have known Jesus and all His goodness for that long. Now that I'm almost there, there is so much I wish I had known earlier. Towards the end of last year, I was reading a book called Killing Kryptonite by …
The other day, I was so frustrated with Darren. I just needed a little help around the house and all he would say was no. No to helping with the dishes, no to making Ezra a sandwich, no to anything I asked! I understand that he was tired, but it was so frustrating, I just needed a hand and whatever he said no to doing, ultimately fell into my lap. I swallowed my tongue and held back what I really wanted to say and did what had to be done. The next day, I was still irritated by his lack of …
I remember it so well. I was really excited to have been selected to be in the school choir. I must have been in grade 3, and I had always thought I could sing but being selected for the team was the affirmation I had been too afraid to ask anyone for. At practice, we sang “tip toe through the tulips” and “New York, New York”. Even though it was still early days, I felt a deep sense of happiness and belonging in that team. Our teacher told us about a competition that would be happening over the weekend, and encouraged …

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I wasn’t keen on this whole “self love” thing when I first saw it coming up on the socials. It almost came across as an excuse to tramp on the hearts of others while doing what you deem as “best” for yourself. ⁣
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While that is obviously not great behavior, I have realized something about loving myself. ⁣
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Loving myself is another way of honoring God, because He Himself lives within me. He sees Himself in me because He created me in His image. ⁣
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While I see what I am right now, He see’s what I can be, He knows my potential - He knows yours too. ⁣
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And that’s why the enemy hates us, and that’s a part of the reason that our Daddy loves us. Learning to love ourselves, in a way helps us honor Him, the one who created us.⁣
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“And what union can there be between God’s temple and idols? For we are the temple of the living God. As God said: “I will live 𝐢𝐧 them and walk among them. I will be their God, and they will be my people.”⁣
2 Corinthians‬ ‭6:16‬ ‭NLT‬‬ ( 📷 cred: @darrenaugust ❤️)
I don’t mean to sound corny, but #blessed 👦🏻
This is my favorite picture from this week. I loved taking a ride through Dundee, and having my cousin show Darren and Ezra around and share some of the spots we had a little too much fun at as children and teenagers. ⁣
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I needed this time so much. Even though it may not have been extravagant, it has been a beautiful and precious trip for me. It’s helped me adjust my lens and put the right things into focus, and I’ve realized once again what is most important to me, and to us as a family unit. ⁣
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The most beautiful thing about this trip has been seeing my Uncle Lenny, play and dote over Ezra. It’s given us a stunning glimpse into what may have been if my dad, and Darren’s dad were alive to do the same with our precious boy. ⁣
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I’m so grateful for this time of refreshing Daddy, thank You for bringing us here ❤️🙏🏼
Merry Christmas from me and mine, to you and yours ❤️🎄so blessed to celebrate another Christmas with my beautiful family.
Honestly, I hate social media over December. To me, it seems like everyone posts about their amazing and perfect lives and holidays when my own life is so far from perfect, it’s so annoying. ⁣
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These pictures, while they do look pretty, the story behind them is not so much.. 😂 It took 5/6 tries before I, firstly, figured out how to use the timer on my new phone, and secondly, got a good picture, where Ezra is actually looking at the camera. Let’s not forget the struggle of looking for the illusive, “good light”. ⁣
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Tbh, these passed few weeks/months have been quite stressful for me, and so few people seem to understand just how difficult it is to push when your running on the tank that comes after the reserve tank.⁣
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With Darren having quite a health scare a few weeks ago, I found myself asking some really hard questions, and honestly I don’t have many good answers for myself right now. ⁣
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While I journey back to the place I know I should be, I felt that I should share this raw, vulnerable and sore “season” on this platform. ⁣
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While most of my posts try to steer more towards the inspirational side of my life and relationship with God, I think it is only fair to share this side too. ⁣
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The hard side. The part where you’re on your knees on the ground in the dark feeling around for the Hands and Feet of The Father. ⁣
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It’s not easy, it’s HARD. It’s exhausting. It may even feel like it’s easier to give up right now, but one thing I know for sure is that the pursuit is worth it. ⁣
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Our Daddy is waiting, arms wide open to comfort you, and show you that He has always been with you.

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